You

You are a hateful thing,
Someone that can crush me,
Cripple me with loss to a point
Where I can't breathe, function, live.

You hound me with guilt, misery,
You never wipe the tears I shed,
You're a sadistic bastard.
You're the best curse I know.

Your darkness envelops me,
Suffocates me, destroys my hope.
You are so permanent, terrifying.
You're a place where there's no escape.

I've tried to fight you, beat you,
Tried to run and hide from you,
Tried to wish you away,
Every mail van, every 11:11.

Today, I know I carry you with me,
You are my parasite, eating at my emptiness.
You remind me that I'm incomplete,
You're my life-mate, you're death.